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[aliseadae]

Just because I'm easy to tease or blame doesn't mean that you should pick me as your target. Too many people do so and then it just builds up into a big puddle of tears over something that doesn't really matter as much as I make it seem but really did hurt me. All the little arrows of meanness (intentional or not) are the most painful right then and I can't deal with it. The tears just come. And it's irrational, and petty but it happens if that last straw gets thrown at me. And I really don't like being the irrational cry baby, and I know making a mountain out of a molehill just makes everything worse and believe me, I don't want to do it. But all of the sudden there's that last molehill and I can't help myself. I'm just sick of people throwing their lives garbage at me. And Peter too. It's always our fault. Come to think of it, Peter gets more of it than I do. But really, neither of us deserves it. Everyone has their faults, but we really don't have that many. Just the same amount as you do.

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[ceci121.livejournal.com]

sally...first of all, you know we love you. peter knows we love him. most of us, at least as far i as know, make conscious efforts to not take our stress out by spazzing on a particular person. we may not quite succeed all the time, but it's also up to you to return that effort by consciously trying not stay calm and not make mountains out of molehills and you may not succeed quite all the time either but as long as we're all trying it should work out at least most of the time, right? and then we're all ok.

[stagnola.livejournal.com]

ok. please stop this. we do not personally hunt you out to put the weight of all our problems. that's not how it works. And the only way it's going to stop bothering you is if you stop letting it bother you. which of course, is pretty damn hard and i probably don't know what I'm talking about. But I'm kind of at a loss of what to say here. I mean obviously I can't just shake you and say "stop being bothered by every little thing I do that may or may not have anythhing to do with you" because it's completely counter-productive (i think I've done that, actually...) but what am I supposed to do? when i'm angry I'm not just going to stop and think "oh, I can't yell now, sally's feelings are going to get hurt." that's not how people work! And it's frustruating because... because i don;t know! It just is! I just don't know what to do anymore!
I'm sorry, this has turned into the longest comment ever and is probably compltetly incoherent. But you need to understand where WE'RE coming from. I know you're working on it, but so are we. We're all stressed and have different ways of dealing with it.

[(Anonymous)]

OK Sally, i think first like Johanna said, understand where we are coming from on this too. It'll make a lot more sense. If anyone is treating you badly, something else is prolly not making them happy or stressing them out. And people don't wake up in the morning and think, "What can i do today to hurt sally's feelings?" Things just don't work like that. Also it sounds sorta like you are making excuses for your blowing up and also sorta blaming it on other people. That doesn't make the situation any better, the blaming part mainly, it'll only end up badly. Blameing people never helps, yes you feel bad about it, yes you don't like it, but no we aren't trying to dump things on you and we do really care and are trying our hardest. And i'll try and say this as nicely as possible but it may come out wierd so really sorry 'bout that, It gets really annoying really fast when you blame people for something they didn't do and when you make excuses for things that you could easily try harded to controll and when you start dumping your problems on everyone else because you say that they are dumping their problems on you. Also one minor thing, along the lines of asking to be respected... respect is a two way street, it's that simple.

[ceci121.livejournal.com]

who's that?