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gah. I wish I could have gone to jprom. I feel sort of out of life and things somehow. Like, I'm not here anymore since I couldn't go. and I wish that it would happen again, later on when I don't have to go to school then next day and I can get a ride. But it won't. And that makes me feel lonely for some reason. I just don't know. I feel really lonely now and I don't know why, really. I guess I feel like I missed out but I think it isn't just that. there is probably something else making me feel lonely but I have no clue what it is as this lonely feeling came really suddenly. I don't know.